It didn’t happen abruptly.
It didn’t come suddenly around the corner.

It was creeping slowly.
Creeping in like an ugly little spider.

And I didn’t stop it.
You didn’t catch it.

But what if nobody ever wants me again?

I am jealous. I want you for myself. I want you to care for me, love me, think of me, respect me. I want to be the centre of your life.

Don’t ditch me, don’t ditch me, don’t ditch me, don’t ditch. me.

Oh Fuck off!

I don’t like what’s going on. I feel left out, I feel abandoned, I feel deserted, underrated and overlooked.

I don’t know what he wants

I don’t know if I’m enough

I don’t know if I understand him

I don’t know if he understands me

I don’t know how to “move on”

I don’t know why

I don’t know how to change

I don’t know if I should change

I don’t know what

I don’t know why I exist

I don’t know if I should know

How could anyone deal with all these emotions. How can anyone LIVE with this much emotion.. IT’S NOT FAIR.

My time seems to mean nothing, it’s worthless, doesn’t matter.

What am I good for? Just a nice little toy that can be taken out of the corner when ever someone wants to play – on their rules and when they have time.